Yuuki ( 勇気 )

Dreamwidth really is the best website for me. I mean there's a lot that can't be done on here, but there's so much that I do like that it totally makes up for it...

Journalling websites are probably my thing in general, I think. That's where the pretty big difference between most of the other websites people find themselves on: twitter, instagram, tumblr, spacehey, plurk, mastodon, misskey, none of them are like Dreamwidth! Tumblr's the closest in some ways, but still so different in others. LiveJournal is basically the same website but older and worse (the latter is not caused by the former.) Dreamwidth really is the best website (for me).

There is... a bit of a problem though...

It's a double edged sword that this website is so unpopular. Like, sure, I struggle to find any community of people with shared interests on this website, I can easily do that on tumblr and twitter, but that isn't my priority right now so it doesn't bother me that much. I don't need my primary website to be a place I'm constantly finding new people to talk to on. I don't!

What I need is a place I can be myself, and Dreamwidth is that place for me. Yes, I'm lonely, but what I lack is not friends, it's time spent with my currently existing ones!

I do... I do want to make new friends on here though. Even if it's harder to find others with similar interests, I think it could be nice... If I just keep being myself and having fun by myself and talking about the things I like, surely someone will want to talk to me, right? I just got to keep being myself, and... and maybe if I get better at writing fanfiction people will want to talk to me about my fan fictions? I think that could be a viable way to make new fandom friends...

Haaah... Ah well. Life goes on no matter what. I'll just keep writing my journal entries and... when I get more confident I might start commenting on other people's journals. New friendship will come one day, and until then I'll appreciate the time I spend with my current friends, online and offline both.

"Pffft" My foolish brain thought "I can leave comments on longfic and not just on oneshots, no way it's that hard to remember which paragraphs are my favorite by the end when there's more than 10.000 words."

MANY ATTEMPTS LATER

"So I guess I'll actually be using that extension that keeps a comment box open while you're actually reading instead of just remembering... EASY."

I actually received responses to several of the comments I left, so I should really work on replying! I don't have the time to do so for maybe a few more days, but I plan to get to the replies later for sure :) I'm so happy to hear back from the writers of the things I read, it's so awesome.

I've kept most of my posts behind access lock, but I think I'm gonna stop being so paranoid now. It's 2025, I'll post about things without worrying "what if someone sees this and tries to harass me?" I'm on dreamwidth where I can block them easily enough. If they want to stalk me then they're the ones in the wrong!

I still won't be posting a lot of personal information, and if anything has me feeling like it's something that could doxx me, I'll just keep those things to myself instead of posting them. :)